My initial idea when starting this blog was to try to write once a week....well, you have seen how that turned out. But God! He has led me to write when He tells me what He wants written and I have been blessed by that. I don't have to think about what to write, when to write, I just let Him do it!
Since about two months ago, He led me back to a day job. I had been praying that if God wanted me to work, to help out financially in our home, that He would have a job land in my lap. And it did! I was not looking. Praise God right?
It seems though, the second it happens, I started second guessing. Did I make this happen? Did I push? Did I pray enough? This went on for probably about the first month.
See, in taking this job, I had to give up a lot of what I had been doing, volunteer, at my home church. I was the behind the scenes girl and I had a goal to do whatever I could to make things easier on our pastor so he could focus on leading! Somehow, I had gotten really busy and had too much on my plate even though I wasn't working.
Add work into the mix, BAM....overload!
So little by little I have had to give up things I did. I was no longer the "Go to gal". and that title being placed on me by me, was hard to give up. I had heard before numerous times about God not wanting us to have titles because He wants us to go where He calls us and do what He tells us.....I have heard about pastors who stepped down and struggled because they were no longer "pastors". There is something hard about losing who you thought you were.
I had been gifted all the tools I needed to do my "go to gal" job quite well. I did not like credit or spot light so being behind the scenes suited me well! And truly, I did desire to show other people how to do what I did so we could have a proper functioning church! So, ultimately, it wouldn't have been me anyway. But, the timing I suppose is what got me.
I went through a phase where it felt like people were treating me different, treating me like I flaked out or like I was not in the Lords will and I am 100% sure that was me, not them. You know how the enemy makes you feel things when big changes happen.
So, here is fact!
1. He is in control of everything!!!! Even if by some chance, we make a decision that is not His plan, He is so much more greater than that and will be in that new plan, that new path. HE doesn't leave us because we make a mistake (not that this was a mistake....see below)
2. As stated above, He never leaves us, ever. Even when we lose sight of who we are to Him. Even when we waiver, He is still there! He still loves us!
3. When things happen that you have prayed about and happen miraculously, they are more than likely of Him, so grab on and hang on tight! Don't second guess, adjust, put your hope and faith in Him and ask Him to help you stand up on this new adventure!
Things to keep in mind!
He loves us so much, even when we makes mistakes.
He loves to bless us because He does love us!
When He has a plan, it is for the best!
Trust in Him.
Don't ever put your hope, joy, ___________ whatever in people because they ALL will disappoint you just as I, you, will disappoint them.
Let all, ALL, you do be for Him, your daily work, your day job, your activities, your service, EVERYTHING, and you will be satisfied knowing you do it for Him and no one else. So even when people let you down, you can know, without a doubt, He is saying, "Well done good and faithful servant!" because you did it for Him!
I pray this encourages you and helps you trust in His plans and trust that even if you make the wrong choice in something, He is still there with you along the way! Going back to work was His plan for me, I am sure of it. But I have made other choices that were probably not His and He still has blessed me and He still loves me! I cry quite a bit because I don't understand His love for me or why He would want to bless me when I am a wretched sinner, but He does! It is purely amazing! If nothing else, hang on to that! His love for you!
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