Living with depression has been an eye opener. I have had to change things in my life that most people don't understand. There are days I have to just let things go. Where some people push themselves to clean their house, do this, do that, some days...it is all I can do to go to work. And I have to be ok with that!
There are days that something incredible happens and I have a split second of joy and then sadness surrounds me. I wonder, am I ok? Is there something wrong with me? No, there is nothing wrong with me other than I suffer from depression.
Some days, I just want to cry, other days, I want to cause arguments and fights, and once in a while, I want to smile and laugh. I have to be ok with this as well!
This is just my life and that is ok. I am learning how to deal with it instead of hiding it or trying to ignore it. My family is learning how to listen to me. I am learning to speak out when I need help or when I need to be left alone. I am learning what works for me and what doesn't.
After researching on what natural things help depression and anxiety, one can sink in a lake of information. I still suggest trying things to ease your pain. What I have found works for me is exercise, art, and music.
I have started working out every day. Working on my health and fitness by eating clean foods and taking care of me. Most days, it has helped me push past my dark days. But now and again, a dark day comes along, even when I exercise.
I started getting into more photography art, my love in life is photography. I have started really trying to capture what I feel onto a photograph. I am embracing this darkness I have because it is a part of me and I should not try to hide it. This is me! Some days, it helps, other days, it doesn't.
Music, one of my biggest loves in life. Some days, I can listen to sad songs and it eases the darkness while other days, it brings me deeper so I have to know when to stop or what to listen to on what days.
I want to be completely natural in medications and food so I am not seeing a doctor currently. I take some natural herbs that are good for you and also help with your mood. However, I do know that if I get worse, it is ok to talk to a doctor. I am ok with that!
Some things work some days and other days, it doesn't.
Where am I going with this blog article?
The thing is, there is this stigma associated with depression and anxiety. If you suffer from this you are sick or messed up. You must be crazy. And yes, sometimes I feel crazy, but I am not crazy, I do not have an illness, and I am not messed up. I am just dealing with depression and anxiety. It is who I am. If you suffer from it, it is who you are. The thing we need to do is not suffer from it. We need to live with it. Live.... We need to be very open and honest with our loved ones. We need to know when to reach out. We need to be open to getting medical help. We need to know what helps and what doesn't help. We need to learn how to embrace the dark and once we do that, we can let the light shine through.
If you need help, you don't know where to start or what to do, let me know. I would love to help you or help you find help!
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