Sometimes, when things end, when things change, the most beautiful things happen!
When He rattles your life, it is hard. I am going through it right now. There are days I just want to give up. There are days I want to give in and go with the flow. There are days I want to run away and hide....
But I don't!
Why? Because my hope is in Christ and Christ alone. Psalm 39:7 "And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in you."
I had become comfortable in my serving in our church body....what happened? I had to get a job. ha ha
So I had to give up a lot of the serving I was doing so God could show me, it is not in my works that I am saved, and I am not responsible for my church family. They need to stand on their own as well!
The latter one was a big one for me. I felt like I had to do most of it or else it would not get done. That's me. A doer! But how can one grow if someone is doing all the work? Ephesians 4:11-12 "And He Himself gave some to be apostles, some prophets, some evangelists, and some pastors and teachers, for the equipping of the saints for the work of ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ,"
Then, we got comfortable with our church family and our life. Oh Lord, may we never be comfortable in anything aside from you.
Our church is going through a change, one that the elders fully believe is Christ, and it may be. But for our family, it is not right. God is leading us a completely different direction and let me tell you, this is the hardest of all.
The enemy knows when you are being rattled so he comes along and adds to it, only his is not a growing rattle, his is to remind you of past hurts, of lies, of deceit.
John 10:10 "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."
It is not a mistake that this one verse has both sides....I believe it is because when God is working in us, the devil is trying to unravel the work at the same time. If you are not strong in your walk, his job is easier.
In these past few weeks, I have been hearing, "friends huh....what great friends you have, they all hate you now....you never truly had any." "Family...you don't know the meaning of family, neither do they. You are better off alone," "Isolation is the best place to re-coop."
"If you are not on the same page as the elders of your church, you are doomed to hell, a wretched sinner whom Christ will never forgive."
Yes, all lies from the enemy. Firstly, the only friend I truly need is Christ and that is a work He has been doing in me a long time. I have always had a desire for a good friend. But...first, I need to let Him be my one and only friend."
Secondly, being alone, isolating is in total opposition to the Bible. Sure, there are times when you can go and be with just Jesus, like when Jesus was in the wilderness fasting and praying. But make sure you are fasting and praying because who else was there? The devil!
Matthew 4:1-3 "Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, afterward He was hungry. Now when the tempter came to Him..."
The last one, is the big one for me. We have prayed deeply, read the word, sought His face, and know, without a doubt, this choice is what He wants for my. We have had numerous confirmations in our decision. The enemy loves to make us second guess ourselves. That is his job, to take our eyes off of Jesus.
So, when you are learning and growing in Christ, remember, stay in the Word, seek Christ, fast, pray, and stand-fast, because that enemy, he wants to come and destroy you!
It is a difficult place to be and being a person who struggles with depression, that makes it that much harder but, I have Jesus right here with me. My Comforter, my Savior, my Father, my best Friend.
Time and time again, when things change, when things are at an end, a new beginning comes, a new story, a turn of a page and I am so excited to see what is ahead for us! So, don't ever give up...just turn the page....you will see, God has an amazing book of your life that He is writing...let Him write it, let Him change things, let Him call you out to the uncomfortable! It will be worth it!
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